hello people.
this is the 201st post of my blog.
but im just worried i cant finish my hmwk.
its 9.50PM for god's sake.
im supposed to slp at 10.
i just guess i'll forget abt the ace reader.
im doing my journal.
if i really chiong,
if i really really chiong,
maybe i'll finish my hmwk at around 12mn, 1-2am.
TT.
i feel so sick, worried, and i feel like crying.
my heart pumps weakly, and it feels like its on a hook, 10000 kilometres up in the air, and just about to drop down to earth.
and every moment, cold sweat squeezes out of the pores of my skin, making me wet, sticky.
how i wish there was someone to comfort me.
if i tell my mother all abt it, she'll just blame me for not doing my work EARLY, which just makes my mood worse.
how i wish i had an imaginary fren or a twin, where i can confide my feelings into.(which im doing now).
its like ur life is shattering within the next few minutes, and yet you have nothing to do to stop whatever that's happening.
how i wish i had a time machine. travel back to the past and past and past and keep on playing.
travel back to the past, and start work early. but of course, no use saying it now.
even though i deny it on the outside, i noe in my mind that...

I CAN ONLY BLAME MYSELF FOR NOT STARTING WORK EARLY.
我只能怪自己。谁叫我不早点做功课？

(oh thanks, i feel much better alrdy :)