This is escapism at its best!

Fuck everyone else who think otherwise.
Fuck those who think that gender stereotypes should be reinforced through lame school activities.

(well its not as if I am forward-looking for issues on gender (actually, I think I quite am) but whatever I hate it)

Other people who do the exact same thing: life goes on, meanwhile enjoy it before it ends
I: gets thrown at a ton of criticisms, judged really badly.

Yes I know I won't get to do it in the future again, so let me do it now before I can't, again.
You say I'm a lying piece of shit. Well, yes I am. I really am. But the world revolves around hypocrisy and lies. Some people lie their way through their lives.

But I know this doesn't negate my wrongdoings(really? The lines are all blurred) and excuses. And whatever I say isn't a good-enough justification for whatever I have done/have been doing/did/am doing.

Because no one is ever happy.
And I am never good enough.

You can judge however you like.
Because it is our inherent nature to judge.
Because,

Who doesn't?

This is a more-than-appropriate song for a time like this.
If history could set you free, from who you were supposed to be?

I just realized how disadvantaged/privileged you can be, depending on where you were born, what your citizenship is, what your race is, where you grew up in, etc etc.

One day, I'm gonna leave this fucking place.
It's my problem it's my problem if I never am happy.
It's my problem if I wanna pack up and run away.
it's my problem it's my problem if I feel the need to hide.




(I still love MATD. Where is her family jewels album?)

Tomorrow is my SEA history paper, which is also my last for promos.

And I just showered. (Yes, 1 o'clock in the morning)

I know I should be studying but I am still not really sure of the content. ~__~ Which explains why I'm on the computer now and trying to study.

My energy and productivity levels magically peak in the middle of the night. #nocturnal

On a side note, it is insanely humid and it seems like it was a bad choice to shower; I feel warmer than before (albeit less sticky and gross).

In any case, this is a reminder (to myself) that after tomorrow everything is over. Although I had so many days to prepare and study, I think I wasted a lot of time because of low productivity and my results would probably still suck.

I hope the weather takes a turn for the better and RAIN. PLEASE. Top it up with some strong winds and low temperatures.
(I'm starting to perspire after taking a shower what is this)

Well, tomorrow is where everything ends, but it's also where everything begins.
New beginnings to fulfill wishes and goals that have never been accomplished in past holidays.

After promos/this upcoming holidays:

• Get a Konstruktor.
• Play around with HTML/CSS.
• Take a MOOC course.
• Change the blogskin of this blog.

This list is non-exhaustive; I shall add more as I deem fit.

Cheers to my new beginnings.
Cheers to our new beginnings.

okay technically they aren't but the last paper is next week and I have a 5-day break before the last test(SEA history) and the all boys camp (ahaha wtf)

hmm. Should I blog about how all the tests are?

First day: IH. was really scared but I tried my best! I mean I just read through the notes before the test and during the test itself I attempted to offer an argument and a counterargument that I could rebut (I really tried!) Hope Mr Mezz finds it okay. At least don't fail me Mr Mezz. :/

First question was about Marshall Plan, second was about Gorbachev's policies (end of Cold War) and the third was about the liberal international economic order (global economy). I don't know any shit about global economy so I kinda fluffed my way through. u__u (in retrospect, I think I kinda fluffed my way through the second question as well)

Went to eat Billy Bombers with Miaoye after the paper. She ordered some chicken chop(which looked and tasted so much better than what I ordered.) I ordered some fish pasta thing (it was just two pieces of fried fish and pasta -.-). I was shaking all the cheese out from the container to add to my pasta, the lid was loose and everything flew out. Yes, there was this heap/pile/mountain of cheese on my pasta and Miaoye and I stared at each other in shock. I embarrassingly scooped some of the cheese back into the container (urgh gross) and had to continue eating the cheese-infested pasta (as if it wasn't cheesy and creamy enough). I couldn't finish it because it was too much. I felt bloated.

This day sucked for Bio people cos they had a paper in the afternoon and they ended at 5pm. Oh god super horrible.

Second day: Econs! Being a serious case of procrastination, I probably started only studying at 10pm in the night (because I think I fell asleep due to my bloated stomach + I studied till late the previous night) it wasn't really productive and I didn't really study much.
Started memorizing the five tables and arguments for and against protectionism in the morning. Yep I am so smart. looked through all the answer keys and stuff, so I didn't touch market structures at all. was studying in the canteen in the morning when Ms Zeng+Keith Prince came and screamed at us to go for morning assembly since we were already there. =__= wtf waste our time I mean seriously we aren't required to go for it. Worst thing is I ended up being the only person in my class queue. hahaha what bullshit. -___________________-

Case study was okay.... but I have an ominous feeling about it, because everytime I feel okay for econs, it turns out bad. I didn't finish the paper. but I probably felt okay didn't really feel bad.
Essay was... better than I expected I guess. I did the international trade question really slowly, so I only had the remaining 15 minutes for the other question(talk about time management), which I chose the (a) central economic problem and optimal choice question (b) something about market failure. Ahahha it was really screwed since I didn't have enough time I just wrote some stuff about scarcity, allocative and productive efficiency briefly before moving onto the part b, and wrote some crap about market failure. I was drawing the graph for market failure when they said to stop writing. ~__~ oh well.

Next was elit, which was about 2 hours after econs. it was just bad. Terrible.
I read the poems and I just wanted to die. I chose the question about love and not modernity because at first glance I decided I could not understand London(title of poem). Couldn't really understand what they were about. ended up using 1 hour (time management skills very good) to decipher what the poems were talking about and I wrote a whole lot of bullcrap. Passage-based question wasn't done that well either; I felt like I was merely stating the obvious. The whole paper was so poorly done, I was like oh please end this torture now. Even when I was writing halfway I was secretly praying for the paper to end early so that the teacher has less shit to mark. ("is it time? oh 15 more minutes" /continues writing bullcrap/)

One day break before math, which was today!
hahaha oh puh-lease I can never be well-prepared for a test even if there's a day break before it. It was such a long paper (3 hours) and I just felt so drained and exhausted halfway through. I was yawning and tearing. I just sort of gave up  halfway cos I knew I could pass but I won't pass with flying colours. gah I just can't do integration and probability. -__- Didn't finish the paper as well. left around 2 blanks? they were integration questions. Argh I need to buck up on my probability and integration.

went home really early I reached home at 12pm and I heard church bells! C: ate lunch, watched some episodes of flip side and I slept till 7.45pm. (woah a long nap there)
Today is Mid-Autumn Festival too but my family didn't drink tea or eat mooncakes. -_- The moon didn't even appear much because the clouds were covering it. gah.

The long nap... isn't really effective. I'm feeling super sleepy now. and hungry! it doesn't help that I'm watching cooking videos argh.


It looks SO GOOD I WANNA EAT.

I hope I do decently well for SEA history.

This is an interesting video.
and more songs here
Panic!@thedisco+fun. C'mon


ARE YOU SATISFIED

oh my god I wanna get her family jewels album and watch her family jewels era concert ARGHHHH chvrches sound interesting too

edited (12:53am 16/9) reminder to self: check out Tokyo Jihen.

gah I'm still spending time on the internet

shite.

Hwa Chong is celebrating MAF (Mid-Autumn Festival) tonight and RV is busy preparing for exams. oh what a contrast. (I actually made a typo while typing contrast and ended up with contrassat it sounds like a cool word)

well anyway,

here's more interesting stuff I dug out from the lovely database of inter-connected virtual sphere.


NY Times Nokia Lumia 1020 (oh god I really want this phone)
100 apps availability
President Obama being really smart
The God Debate (actually I don't really get it I don't see a conclusion to it but oh well :/ it was interesting)
Midway: A Documentary Gah this is like another "The Cove". It makes me hate our world and humanity so much I just sit down in one corner and do nothing to help. ~__~ and then after watching and going back to our daily lives, we conveniently forget that such stuff are happening around us. *Poof* Out of sight, out of mind.
But seriously I do wanna watch the documentary though.

Okay this is kinda irrelevant and doesn't really contribute to our world viewpoint and global perspective /becomes a GP teacher/, but here goes--better alternatives to Justin's shit. Yes it is. (okay no, I am just biased. but whatever really)

yeah I better go study (which I'm never gonna do argh hate myself so much)

oh god I haven't been doing any shit.

someone, please swing me out of the window like a frisbee.

Every time the holiday comes, I go on an extremely long date with the internet. Every single time.

And now... I shall end the date and FOCUS ON MY STUDIES.
my promos are next week and I'm not studying. but I don't want to be retained. fuck. ;__;

anyway that's not the point of this post.

I've ignited my love for Lana Del Rey.

She's too pretty u__u

She came to Singapore for the opening of a Mulberry store last year in Oct. Some very lucky fans met her at her hotel and it wasn't a fanmeet or anything it WAS JUST THEM AND THEY HAD FACE-TO-FACE TALK. Obviously those fans took the opportunity to video her down. She sounded really genuine and I melted when she gave a shoutout to some local fans who weren't there. I melted.

Gah I feel like buying her album. I need to compile a list of albums to buy and undertake retail therapy after the trauma of promos.

and I really love her cover of Blue Velvet.

and while wasting my time (when I should be studying) and searching for demos of her song (Queen of Disaster sounds interesting too), I suddenly started watching Marina and the Diamonds interviews and realized how bubbly and funny she is during interviews. (you can tell how much time I wasted)

oh yeah after promos I need to start watching movies too.
Movies to watch(Note to self): Polisse, Amelie.

and here are some articles to read (oh because I oh so love celeb gossip)
http://www.celebuzz.com/2013-09-12/joseph-gordon-levitt-on-gay-rumors-itll-be-tacky-of-me-to-clarify-my-sexuality/
http://www.celebuzz.com/2013-09-12/nicole-kidman-mowed-down-by-paparazzo-on-a-bike/
http://www.celebuzz.com/2013-09-10/kathy-griffin-calls-out-perez-hilton-for-bullying-lady-gaga-hes-using-the-oldest-trick-in-the-book/
http://www.celebuzz.com/2013-09-12/lady-gaga-talks-miley-cyrus-molly-and-lesbian-sex-on-watch-what-happens-live/

and Sims is releasing another town wtf this one is really enticing

okay WHY DO THEY HAVE TO TEMPT ME LIKE THIS WHY DO THEY HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME (AND THEY'RE USING SIMS 2 SOUNDTRACK WHY OH MY GOD I'M SUDDENLY OVERWHELMED BY WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF SIMS 2 AND SIMS 1 THEY HAD SUCH DISTINCTIVE SOUNDTRACKS)

I need to leave and study fuck my life kthxbai (oh wow what a great way to end the post)

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