collection of videos I watched today.

I need to do something about our OP slides and script and stuff but I don't know what to do. SOMEONE HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Other groups seem to be so enthusiastic and meeting up and stuff and we're like hibernating at home... and I don't think we have finalized everything for our dry run tomorrow. u__u

I'm not complaining or anything, I just hope everything works out in the end c: (just like our WR, with my awesome group mates yeah~)

And I'm currently really hungry right now.

I RECALLED MY DREAM.

IT WAS A TERRORIST ATTACK.

edit.
wow my blog exceeded 1900 views!
(sounds pathetic I know)

Anyhow, /pops confetti and champagne!/

Let me try to recall my terrorist attack dream.

I remember I was in the train on a seat, comfortably people-watching/observing. (or judging).
And somehow I knew that something was gonna happen (like a terrorist attack) but not sure what. So suddenly there was this commotion outside, and I heard my elder brother shouting really loudly FROM OUTSIDE in a panicky voice to my mum to run off / go away / escape (I think the train stopped at a station, and the doors opened. and its funny how my bro and mum weren't with me.)

Yep so when the doors opened I heard my bro shouting... And I think I could imagine my bro dragging my mum along in a panic. (I didn't see them; I was facing away from the platform so there was no way I saw them) And yet even when I heard my mum / bro, I didn't like realize anything was wrong and continued my people-watching. =___= (and the weird thing was that nobody in the train reacted as well.)

THE NEXT THING WAS CRAZY. Some dude in khaki green outfit carrying a machine gun strode in and just swept his shots at us. I COULD REMEMBER THIS LADY DYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES OKAY ITS REALLY SCARY.

THE MOST EPIC THING WAS THAT I WAS HIT BY A FEW BULLETS AND I STARTED BLEEDING, BUT I COULD STILL MANAGE TO GET OUT OF THE TRAIN.

And quickly ran for help. -__- Apparently it doesn't hurt and I remember I looked at my wounds they were all magically healed already.

Okay I ran out of the station for help and it was just like any normal day outside. I looked around at the passers-by and they don't seem to know what had happened in that station. So I asked this group of teens for help and shouted  I've been shot, I'm gonna die, please help me, call an ambulance. blahblah. and appparently they laughed like it was some joke and sort of looked around whther it was some prank and whether there were any cameras recording. So I pleaded with them, and cried and shouted "HE JUST CAME IN AND SWEPT HIS SHOTS AT US"

And they still (politely) declined to help. -__- the most stupid thing was that I apologized if I caused them any inconvenience what on earth. I think I asked a few more people and the results were the same.

And I woke up.
What a screwed up story, really.

WR is a bitch. I thought we were still fine... and hmph. its giving me a headache. fuck.
and tomorrow there's tuition. >__> I'd much rather wish I had the time for WR but my mum would scream at me for wasting $$$.
sian siannnnnnnnnnn

aha~

I remember I had a dream, and I still recalled it when I accidentally woke up in the morning. Like after my bro woke up, and after he left for work, I think. (Its probably around 6am, nearing 7.)

Unfortunately I fell back asleep and I can't recall anything.

But coincidentally, I was reading my previous blog posts (because my blog is now oh so pretty I simply can't resist) and I read about SEA promo exam. AND SOMETHING CLICKED IN MY MIND; I remember vaguely that there's a SEA exam somewhere...? And it really just like the promos because I think there's a long break somewhere right before the test.

Hmph, but I still can't remember lots of details. I don't even know why there is even a test. Gah it was probably just as absurd/incoherent as my previous dreams. I'll forget all about it in the future.

But isn't quite interesting to note down all your dreams? Write down the 5W1H of your dream, and its like a story/drama your brain makes up without you doing any work (as long as you remember it). It's quite exciting if you could actually record all your dreams in a book, and consult a psychologist/dream-decoder to see if there are any messages your brain is trying to convey. ahaha sounds so dramatic, like some thriller or some horror story. But wouldn't it kinda scare the psychologist/dream-decoder if you suddenly approach them with a book filled with narratives of your dreams, and coerce convince them to unravel your dreams? "DECODE THEM YOU STINKY ASS, ISN'T THIS YOUR JOB?" Mine probably would be interesting. "oh... erm your dreams... they are... peculiar. This dream you had... signifies how unhappy you are with your life. You just need to chill and live with it. Get over it. Your consultation fees would be..."

Right. :/

I find it extremely gratifying that there are loads of readers. The very notion of that flatters me greatly. :>

THENKYU. :3 (please tag and reveal your identity: click on 'about' on the right side, and press the tagboard link. There should be a popup, and leave a message of some sort)

okay yay!

I've finally changed the blogskin, how is it?

hmph I was deciding between a few and this was not one of the few hahaha
(I need to learn how to code something like this, argh I've been saying this since eons ago)

Meanwhile I've this really strong desire for a film camera. u__u

I feel like getting one of these cameras, especially the Fuji Natura S and the ancient Olympus Pen. They're probably expensive so I have absolutely no chance of getting them. /creys/
Or maybe the Pentax Espio? The author GOT A REALLY GOOD DEAL. The pictures are amazing-zing~
And I probably need good films to go along with good cameras. Like these, and this. But the first one has already been discontinued, which is kinda sad.
Actually the films that Lomography produces are not bad too. c:
These cameras are super hard to find and expensive I guess... and the films will probably burn a hole in my pocket (if I happen to take a lot of photos).
Maybe I should just focus on a Konstruktor first. IT SOUNDS EXCITING REALLY. <: nbsp="">

I need to SAVE UP so I can afford these. >__>

AND I STILL CAN'T GET OVER THE FACT THAT MARINA WAS IN SINGAPORE AND MY COUSIN RECEIVED A MACBOOK PRO FOR HER BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM HER FAMILY. ;__;

I need to sleep, there's school tomorrow (thankfully it starts later) and I just read the comments for my WR... The comments are so demoralizing and depressing and he said it would be ready for submission after addressing all of them. Right.

I'm still choosing a blogskin... Maybe I should just stop deliberating and go read the comments for my WR that Mr Loo just sent back.
And actually do my WR.

I REALLY NEED A HOLIDAY.
I still remember my dream. Something about going to Penang with Jiawin, and my family joining me later.
Its really funny.
I think the plan was that, since my family and I were going Penang (for some reason), I decided I could go with Jiawin first, and have my family join me later (this actually doesn't make sense.) So I was discussing my plans with Jiawin, when Ms Cheng appeared with another man (I am not quite sure of his identity, it seemed like just a silhouette. I think I assumed it was another teacher in my dream.) And she said she was meeting this Chinese writer (this lady called Mao-Lan or something BUT I'M REALLY SURE I READ A BOOK IRL ABOUT HER BEFORE. something about the cultural revolution. :o). And apparently I read her books before and I was extremely excited about it but kinda sad I can't meet her. So I asked whether she could get an autograph for me or something :> and I remember she agreed hehe (this is probably an allusion to ME NOT MEETING MARINA AND HER FUCKING DIAMONDS u__u)

and suddenly I was transformed back to my house and I wanted to confirm my schedule with my mum. So I asked her when she would be arriving in Penang, and she checked her ticket -- the ticket says around 11pm. (If I didn't remember wrongly it said 11.45pm) Originally in my mind, I planned that I would arrive with Jiawin first and sort of hang around and wait for my family to come over, so Jiawin can go back to his house. and SO my family can't arrive too late, because Jiawin needs to return to his house. It got me really confused that they were arriving at around 11pm or 12 midnight, because Jiawin would probably need to go back by late afternoon, and I would be stranded and left alone after that. So I would be left wandering around the streets of Penang until late at night with nothing to do, WHICH IS WELL QUITE SCARY. Confusion became annoyance, and I think I started questioning and bickering with my mum.

After which, I woke up.

MARINA YOU WERE IN SINGAPORE HOW COULD YOU NOT SAY ANYTHING WHY DID YOU HAVE TO KEEP IT HUSH HUSH AND WHY IS IT AN EXCLUSIVE CLOSED EVENT DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH MISERY YOU CAUSED ME AND WHAT ON EARTH WHY DID MR COLIN LIM OPEN FOR HER GIG THIS IS TOO INSANE THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING AND NO ONE HAS ANY INSIDE INFORMATION WHERE MARINA IS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OTHERWISE I WOULD'VE GONE TO STALK HER TAKE SOME PHOTOS AND GET HER SIGNATURE ESKTHV OIEJMGOVSGFIOV JOEIJ ROPI MSDFGDFG

GTG BYE

edit. MY COUSIN GOT A MACBOOK PRO FOR HER BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY OH GOODNESS SUPER LUCKY ;__;

MARINA IS IN SINGAPORE.

WHAT ON EARTH.

SHE DIDN'T PUBLICISE ANYTHING AT ALL.

I AM FREAKING PISSED. I WAS LITERALLY SCREAMING WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS.

I wanna cry. u__u (I HOPE SHE TOURS AROUND TOMORROW SO I CAN GET THE CHANCE TO STALK HER)

okay so I finally updated. yep that previous post was the one I've been wanting to write.
SO MANY SHIT HAS HAPPENED.

D:

firstly the promoted/retained thing. oh my god. Its really scary. I heard 30 people were retained which is insane because its almost like 1/10 of my level? (And I also heard from the teachers that Mrs Teo is the take no bullshit kind of person so she doesn't accept appeals. ~__~) Someone needs to compile a list of people who is retained so that people like me can stop speculating who and who. I'm not trying to be mean or what, I am just curious. And I guess, as batchmates, we should show some concern right? I'm really feeling kinda sad for some people.

I don't even know why I'm not in condi promo. What on earth I don't even study as hard. (I heard the cut off UAS for condi was 25)

Secondly, it seems like a lot of people are facing a lot of problems with their WRs. I'm really thankful we're surfing rather smoothly through.

Okay bye its really late.

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I think people like to preserve their memories.

They do it in different ways through different mediums.

The good thing is, many other people probably share the same memory/experience too, and many of them want it to be preserved as well.

While the initial group may have it preserved in its purest form (i.e. in the way they remember it), it could differ in various degrees as compared to the latter, in ways of nuances and subtleties.

People experience differently, feel differently, process information differently when they are placed in the same situation.

I feel like Anthony Chen has just told my life story, somehow.

Ilo Ilo seemed like a completely new story to me, and yet strangely, incredibly familiar.

I could laugh at a particular scene or conversation while others may wonder what is so funny, or find it hard to comprehend. Something so ordinary and plain, something that I probably wouldn't notice in that era, but so skillfully captured and aptly represented.

Even though Anthony Chen and I were born more than 10 years apart, the film made me feel like we lived in the exact same place at the exact same time.

Everything, details so mundane and routine, but so weirdly relatable and incredible it stirs up the insides.

Conversely, my maid was Indonesian, but I guess we went through the same pain and misery of seeing her leave. Somehow we were more than maid & employer's child, more than simply just friends. 

Same same, but different lah.

The film dug out a treasure I buried deeply, and it is something that I will definitely hold close to my heart.

Cheers to the maid generation. *clink*

P.S. Yeo Yann Yann and Jiale were really good. Actually the entire cast was fantastic.
P.s.s. I watched this film 2 times and it was after the second time because of a certain someone when I watched it the first time making dumb personal commentaries HAHA that I was filled with this untenable yearning. It didn't help that my parents and sister visited her right before Sept hols while I was busy with promos and PW. Coupled with the terror of getting back my results, fear of being retained, and the ridiculous amount of stress my mum never fails to put on me, I became really emotional, cranky, and angsty. Almost suicidal, almost unpredictable. I don't know whether if I should say this, but I teared a couple of times during in one single math lesson. (Yeah I guess you could chide me for not paying due attention to Mr Ang, who is super nice. I felt guilty, really, but I couldn't help it.)

Gah I wrote another post halfway and I never got down to finishing it.

I shall try to finish it tomorrow, after the Cold War talk PLUS meeting with the Nissan salesperson for PW. Its so late ;__;

and I won't bring my sister's laptop anymore, it has become a point of contention.

oh yeah and I promised to change the blogskin to breathe new fresh life onto this rather dead blog, shall do it tomorrow too. Meanwhile I shall kick myself in the ass for always sleeping so late.

(I signed up for some immersion with the local Japanese school, I hope I won't be extremely awkward and be seen as some anti-social asshole. I might need to brush up on my Japanese too u__u)

Right now the most important thing is i guess, PW? WR is supposedly due by next week hurhur I feel like I've not been doing anything (I have to Estelle a lot for initiating meetings and pushing the group to do stuff and being super helpful. Why am I the group leader even)

Maybe I won't have time to change blogskin and finish the post by tomorrow. There's stilll tuitionnnnnn on Sat even though its after my promos hahaha yay




THEY'RE COMING OUT WITH SEASON 3 I wished I could donate and get the DVD/shirt/stickers or something.
I might learn something from this I NEED A LOT OF HELP FOR LIT

 I need to buck up and learn how to write proper arguments my essays are all shitty even though I attempted to study.