I seriously wonder why I experience severe mood swings sometimes. I don't what got over me.
There was once during lit, I suddenly had this emotional breakdown / panic attack / I don't know how to describe this feeling. I was just overwhelmed by this wave of exhaustion, that I simply didn't want to listen/pay attention. I needed a breath of fresh air.

I was suffocating.
I was gasping for air.
Unable to breathe, I was constantly struggling against the current, constantly struggling for that respite I wish for.

I was drowning, on the surface. Funnily enough, nothing wasn't pulling me down. There isn't any reason for me to stay level, since I wasn't sinking. Yet, I couldn't simply pop my head out of the water. I was firmly stuck right beneath the surface.

The saddest part is that salvation was within reach, but there wasn't anything I could do to save myself.

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I watched Maleficent, and I am OBSESSED with the soundtrack i.e. Once Upon a Dream by LDR.
It wasn't too bad; at least it kept me entertained throughout. But it wasn't spectacular that I would watch it again.
and me being me having loads of time to waste, I went to watch the 1959 Sleeping Beauty animation. Don't judge.
Ran for Sundown Half-Marathon. Met Sasha and Jiayan but I didn't see Jiawen D:
Half the time I was running, I was questioning myself WHY DID I JOIN THIS
I was happy I ran for at least 15(?) km before I started walking. And even then I couldn't just let myself go; I didn't stroll, I walked fast. and then when I felt I could continue, I started jogging. And the whole cycle repeats. But I wasn't stupid enough to push myself so hard that I would jog/run the entire thing, I WOULD'VE DIED.
Besides the fact that people were jogging too slowly at the beginning and I was getting annoyed while trying to overtake, another thing that struck me the most was at the hydration station. So at the second hydration station, there wasn't water, so yeah obviously no one could get any. and I heard one of the female runners behind me say "management very bad" (or something like that). =__= erm, it's only the beginning, you could jog to the next hydration station right? And honestly you could survive running for another 2km without water.
the last 3km was the craziest/a torment. My legs were getting exhausted/starting to ache to the extent that I couldn't simply ignore and continue running. And my back was getting stiff and aching too. I had to stop my jog more frequently with brisk-walking. And I started to not sweat anymore (because of the lack of water my body had I guess), and my lips started to taste super salty. WHICH I THOUGHT WAS SCARY, I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS THAT DEHYDRATED. There were times where I couldn't even walk straight(without even realising) and also times where I was weaving in and out consciousness, WHICH WAS ALSO TERRIFYING. The last 500m was TORTUROUS. I promised myself that I would jog the whole way but I just couldn't take it. In the end, I think I only started jogging at the last 50m. EMBARRASSING CHOO Nonetheless, I'm thankful for my iPod, which helped me to persevere. heh.
MY TIMING WAS 3:05:05!(not bad huh) They were nice enough to supply a can of 100plus, a bottle of water, a banana and a medal! I went to a relatively spacious spot and settled down there. MY ANKLE AND KNEE HURT LIKE MAD AND I'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE THAT. I mean it wasn't excruciating but it was just... not a great thing to feel. I was resting my legs and my bro found me! lucky~ I gulped down 2 cans of 100 plus (bad choice because exhaustion + empty digestive system, I suffered from air in the stomach/gastrointestinal tract). while waiting for my sis, we were lying down and sort of napping/resting. a while later my bro went to look for her. He came back and it was my turn to search. In the end, I had to borrow someone's phone to call her (which was about an hour later), and she came over to where we were (near the massage tent). Turns out she just finished then, so we had been looking for her in vain. -__- my father came soon after and we reached home at about 5:40am (imagine how tired we are. IT WAS LITERALLY AN OVERNIGHT 21KM RUN)
my ankles thankfully has recovered but my knees still feel strained and are still hurting, esp when I try to stand/sit/bend my knees. I stuck on Actitape but I don't know if it works. and I feel so restricted in my movements gah.
 I'm already hobbling around at home like an old granny, I hope my legs don't give me troubles when I'm in school.