intoxicated .

tic toc toe

2.04.2015 10:38 AM

As i am writing this, I'm now sitting in my fathers car on my way to white sands. The overcast sky threatened with a torrent of rain.

My mother is going slightly insane/high due to her nerves I suppose. But who am i to judge? I would be lying if i said I'm not nervous. (After several counselling sessions from my bro, I'm safe to say tthat I've calmed down quite a bit... But still .__.)

Never would i have thought that this day would come so goddamn quickly. I still remember starting my first day of work at SAM and now I've already collected my pay and (still mentally) preparing for enlistment. I'm now getting all jittery over my (potential) social life? Would i even make friends...? (Not that it would matter, because i have no friends anyway) (also i hope they don't kill me physically because I've not been training >__>)

I'm worried since I'm not the type to approach people but would usually wait for people to say hi. After years of selfintrospection and days of my stint in service as a retail assistant, I have observed that quite obviously about myself, always trying to act busy but not taking the initiative to talk. I'm shy in front of strangers. But not really. I'm both at the same time.

Again, time passes so quickly and everything has gone by unnoticed. We swim and glide through time like playing a game of tic tac toe; swiftly, but inevitably.

A few nights ago, i had a dream where i tried to play the piano but i kept making the same errors at the exact same spot everytime. What was more disappointing was that it was a song that I've played for years and memorised.

But one or two days ago, i decided to shower the piano with my love one last time before enlistment and discovered, reassuringly, that I've not lost that ability to play that song at all.

Choo Yun Yu. 19. Singapore. December 2006 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 November 2010 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 September 2011 October 2011 April 2012 September 2012 October 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 December 2014 January 2015 February 2015 March 2015 April 2015 May 2015 June 2015 July 2015 September 2015 October 2015 November 2015 April 2016 June 2017 Sylvia Plath and her bell jar;
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